Feel Sad Moments

DAY 9:

I mentioned in an earlier post that I’m an artist and today I received the news that my painting wasn’t selected for an exhibition that I had entered. No matter how many times I am rejected or selected, the rejections are still tough. I put myself on the canvas and it wasn’t good enough for the panel. That’s the nuts and bolts. It doesn’t mean my work isn’t good enough, just that it wasn’t right for this particular show. I’ve experienced enough of the artwork at all levels in one way or another to know that there are many factors at play. Art and the creative world are intricate spaces. There is no direct route or straight line to get you where you want to be - successful.

Still, despite my utmost belief in my work with all its presence, quality and life experience, I feel the distant tremors of self doubt; is my work not good enough?…Have I been kidding myself all this time?

The thoughts get louder, the doubt stronger, very soon my confidence is fractured. This is tough!

It’s amazing how easy it has been to momentarily destabilise my belief in my artwork and myself. This is the nature  of the art world and it’s common knowledge that you gotta have thick skin to keep going in this industry. It’s also true that tapping into this side of our creativity requires a sensitivity and awareness. Striking a balance between the two is like walking a tight rope, every knock back can feeling like falling off.

Whether we get back on is up to us. I always do and I hope I always will.